Random Musings

So, tonight, I'm a little frazzled after some crazy deadlines and unrealistic expectations on the work side of the fence. People want to bend you till you break and then bend you some more and eventually, no matter how flexible you are.. you break. So tonight, my remedy for heart ache, brain ache and just all round Seasonally Affected Disorder is to down a delightful red recommended by my lovely neighbourhood wine man and watch some trashy DVDs. That was all going swimmingly until I decided to dip my toes into rom com territory - seriously that is sooo not me. A genre that I've always had reservations with. In some instances, men I've dated ( and married) have enjoyed that particular genre more than I have. I was thinking about why that was tonight as I watched the truly god awful Bride Wars.  I am so grateful that I married and divorced in my twenties - even if my mother thinks that is what broke me. It wasn't. I was broken before that blip on the radar. I'm

Do you have those days, where a looming deadline has the opposite effect on your productivity that it should have and you have to take a good look at your life? So that is where I find myself today. Eyeing my work laptop bag with disdain and a sense of guilt that I've yet to get cracking. Sure it could be the veritable 'round the world in Shiraz' journey I took last night with my lovely friends. Perhaps it has to do with all the emotional drama of late, courtesy of yet another messed up "relationship" that is now over. To be honest it is all rather exhausting and combine that with the horrific sights of the Grenfell Tower fire watched in real time courtesy of round the clock news and it could be enough to send a less resilient person to want to do something drastic. Thankfully, that's not me. My birthday is coming up and it is always an unwelcome reminder of another year passing. Dreams left unfulfilled, achievements unrealised, and the prospect of anothe